|“Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in your year…”
Ralph Walden Emerson
2015was a year of changes and growth. Right, right… every year is, however, 2015 was particularly more difficult, and the truth; I kept myself in some of my personal turmoil. With that said, I can still say, although I had my share of negative experiences, my positive outweighed my negative substantially. Thank you Jesus!
I am one of those individuals who would swear, “I got my shit together” only to realize once the party is over… “GURRRL!! You need to work on you a little (LOT) bit MORE; you are so not there YET HONEY!”
In 2015 I found myself in a relationship I never should have given as much time as I did, stressing over finishing school, and second-guessing everything I SAY OR DO; is this the time for a career change, where is my life going? I have a medical issue, high blood pressure, which I just cannot seem to take seriously. I have kids that put the UNNECESSARY in unnecessary stress! With that said…here comes the resolution for GREAT CHANGES!
We all start the New Year with an exciting outlook and life changing promises but the truth is, we rarely make it to January 2 with our resolutions. This year….this year I am going to propose obtainable goals, beginning with taking life itself a bit more serious. I could not fathom going back on a promise I make to another person, however, I have no qualms with backing out of promises to myself. A long list of what I want to accomplish is not necessary, just 3 promises to myself.
Lifestyle changes are unavoidable. Blood pressure pills are unavoidable. Deal with the inconvenience now vs. the outcome if I continue to ignore it. Me FIRST, Me FIRST, Me FIRST in LOVE, HEALTH, AND HAPPINESS!
Stay in my lane; focus on my goals and what is obtainable considering my status as a single mom with children. Meaning, stop trying to drive in the next person’s lane it is not MY TIME. What God has for them is theirs and what he has for me IS FOR ME. I will improve my circumstances, I will make changes and continue to grow…, but my step 1, is my step 1 alone.
God will work it out…but I have to be realistic. No one is going to stop by my house and hand me a check for a million dollars, or tell me I was hired as an Executive Marketing Director for Google…and I never submitted a resume. I will not wake up one morning to a new car in my driveway with a huge sign on the windshield: PAID IN FULL. Even better, receive a phone call telling me; Lisa you just won an ALL EXPENSES PAID FAMILY VACATION for you and ALL DEM KIDS!!! But GOD will put opportunities in front of me to obtain what I want for me and my family, and I will learn over time, not to miss them.
What can I say with certainty going into 2016?
I’m feeling at PEACE and it feels amazing starting a new year in a good emotional place, honest with myself, clear mind and marching forward AFTER a year that left me feeling a bit low on self-esteem, alone in my trials and tribulations and haggard.
I won’t end with a mind-blowing vision from God himself but what I can offer you; keep God nearby. Do not leave him out of your life, your every decision, your every step, your every breath. You may be running him ragged but imagine your life without him! Not promising you a great 2016 folks but I can promise, you will at least make it through with your sanity if prayer is ALWAYS at the tip of your tongue ready to flow.
With that said, the New Year marks a fresh NEW START of brighter and more exciting journeys. I wish you the most enjoyable RIDE EVER!!
Happy New Year To You & Yours!
No, dear brothers and sisters, I am still not all I should be, but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I strain to reach the end of the race and receive the prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us up to heaven.